CAUTION- Serious vent to follow

I really try not to use profanity in my blog alot, but this situation warrants it. For those with virgin eyes, you have been forwarned.......



I feel like that with a select few aspects of my life I just cannot win. My Ford Escort needs a clutch to the tune of $1300.- guess what. I don't have it, mainly because I had to sink $1100.- into Rob's car last month for brakes, because he's lazy, and doesn't make enough money to cover repairs of that size,now we're down to one car, I receive little to no input/support from the one I SHOULD be getting it from,blah blah, blah.....
I'm tired of being the sole decision maker, sole planner...if I'm going to continue acting on my own, then I want to be on my fucking own!! I am just way out of fucking patience, I am out of ....everything. I can't take another friggin' crisis thrown at me.
No, I'm not going to do anything stupid; please, I am way smarter than that....there's a great line from Supertramp's Take the Long Way Home- ' then you feel that your life's become a catastrophe, oh, it has to be, for you to grow' Maybe I just need it all to implode, fall apart, and then I can start anew....?
I just thank God for the people and things that make me happy, add positively to my life, and that help to keep me grounded and sane ......
if that which doesn't kill us makes us stronger, then man, I am going to be one powerful fucking force to behold!! =)
Thanks for reading.